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Mar. 6th, 2009 12:37 am[Oh, this piece. This piece exists because I am evil.
This was—hard to write. Very hard to write. Because Dean is so family-oriented. He believes that it’s all he is, and his family is the most important thing to him. Screw with his family, and you screw with a scary side of Dean that you don’t want to see.
The reason I picked Dean’s family as his trigger in Hell is I always got this sense throughout the early seasons before he made his deal, it’s that Dean seemed to be much more family oriented than his father or brother was. And that’s not to say anything against Sam and John, but Dean was family glue. Dean was the one who tried to keep in touch with Sam while he was in college, and he would try to keep John and Sam from fighting, and Dean was the go-between. When you look at it, John and Sam were all he had, and after having everything in his life taken away from him, starting with his mother, and ending with his own life, and Dean would do anything he could to hang on to both of them.
If he’d had his way, he would have rather died than have his father sacrifice himself for him, because Dean didn’t know what he was supposed to do with John gone, and it was becoming another thing he lost. He kind of believes that John would have known what to do when it came to Sam being grabbed by Azazel—and it wouldn’t end with him putting a bullet in Sam’s brain—where Dean was just flying by the seat of his pants, and that wound up getting Sam killed.
There was also the possibility where he may not have gone to Hell and actually had a peaceful afterlife, but that was a whole other story.
Anyway, Hell. Family was an easy trigger to pick, because it’s all Dean is. Now, into the actual fic.]
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This was—hard to write. Very hard to write. Because Dean is so family-oriented. He believes that it’s all he is, and his family is the most important thing to him. Screw with his family, and you screw with a scary side of Dean that you don’t want to see.
The reason I picked Dean’s family as his trigger in Hell is I always got this sense throughout the early seasons before he made his deal, it’s that Dean seemed to be much more family oriented than his father or brother was. And that’s not to say anything against Sam and John, but Dean was family glue. Dean was the one who tried to keep in touch with Sam while he was in college, and he would try to keep John and Sam from fighting, and Dean was the go-between. When you look at it, John and Sam were all he had, and after having everything in his life taken away from him, starting with his mother, and ending with his own life, and Dean would do anything he could to hang on to both of them.
If he’d had his way, he would have rather died than have his father sacrifice himself for him, because Dean didn’t know what he was supposed to do with John gone, and it was becoming another thing he lost. He kind of believes that John would have known what to do when it came to Sam being grabbed by Azazel—and it wouldn’t end with him putting a bullet in Sam’s brain—where Dean was just flying by the seat of his pants, and that wound up getting Sam killed.
There was also the possibility where he may not have gone to Hell and actually had a peaceful afterlife, but that was a whole other story.
Anyway, Hell. Family was an easy trigger to pick, because it’s all Dean is. Now, into the actual fic.]
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