If you're reading this, you're probably pretty upset with me right now.
I'm not sure if the fact that I'm sorry will help at all, but I am. This isn't how I wanted things to go. In fact, if we had more time, I probably would have done a lot of things differently. But the visions are getting bad and I'm not sure how much more time we have so for now, this is goodbye.
I need you to know that this was my choice. That the roads were laid out for me and while there were other options, I don't think there was a way that I could have had what I wanted, and still protect the people who need protecting. There's something coming, Wynonna, and I'm not sure if there's a way for me to see it through to the other side where we win.
But I need you to know that if I had another way, a better way, I would have stayed. I would have chosen you and come back to you. I need you to believe that.
I'm not a big believer in fate, you know that. I don't know if I believe that all of our choices are laid out for us, and we don't have a say. But I can make a call that I think will give us our best chance. Better me dead than anyone else. Better me dead than you. Because if I can't get this done, I know you, Jo and Sam will.
When you're done being pissed at me, I need you to find Sam. I know he's not your favorite person, but if I'm gone, he's going to be alone and I would really appreciate it if you could keep an eye on him. There's a letter in your bag for him from me. If nothing else, please make sure he gets it.
I lo This is gonna be real awkward if I make it out the other side and you find this anyway. I'm such a dick.
It's been a while, and I'm not really sure how to start this.
If you're reading this, I'm dead. I'm sorry if this is how you're finding out. I'm sorry if Wynonna is how you're finding out, but this was the easiest way to get this to you. Don't be too hard on her, alright? I know you two could never seem to figure things out but she means a lot to me. So suck it up, bitch.
I know things have been rough between us for the last few years. If I'm honest, I'd say they've been rough ever since you went to the Academy. I know it's not your fault, and that I wasn't the most supportive. It wasn't because of you. It was because I didn't trust the people you were trusting to teach you. Maybe I'm wrong. But whatever the truth of it is, I hope you figure it out.
I know that with me gone, you're going to get up to your ears in this, but don't do it alone. You'll need followers of the Changebringer to help you, so take Wynonna and see if you can track down Jo. Maybe the three of you can put your heads together and figure out what comes next. I'm sorry I didn't find more information for you, but with the Solstice coming, we can't afford to lose time. I don't have to tell you about the ways the world's going to go fucking screwy.
Or at least I shouldn't. If I do, I'm going to have to question your fancy schmancy education.
I really didn't mean to leave you alone, Sammy. I wish that I was able to tell you this face to face instead of like this. I know we haven't always been the best at goodbyes, but I'm trying on this one. I need you to remember who you are. That asshole may have trained you, but that doesn't mean he made you.
I love you, Sam. I'd tell you not to do anything stupid, but I know that this job requires a whole lot of stupid every so often. Tell Jo I owe her a bottle of Lionett Wine.
for wynonna
Wynonna,
If you're reading this, you're probably pretty upset with me right now.
I'm not sure if the fact that I'm sorry will help at all, but I am. This isn't how I wanted things to go. In fact, if we had more time, I probably would have done a lot of things differently. But the visions are getting bad and I'm not sure how much more time we have so for now, this is goodbye.
I need you to know that this was my choice. That the roads were laid out for me and while there were other options, I don't think there was a way that I could have had what I wanted, and still protect the people who need protecting. There's something coming, Wynonna, and I'm not sure if there's a way for me to see it through to the other side where we win.
But I need you to know that if I had another way, a better way, I would have stayed. I would have chosen you and come back to you. I need you to believe that.
I'm not a big believer in fate, you know that. I don't know if I believe that all of our choices are laid out for us, and we don't have a say. But I can make a call that I think will give us our best chance. Better me dead than anyone else. Better me dead than you. Because if I can't get this done, I know you, Jo and Sam will.
When you're done being pissed at me, I need you to find Sam. I know he's not your favorite person, but if I'm gone, he's going to be alone and I would really appreciate it if you could keep an eye on him. There's a letter in your bag for him from me. If nothing else, please make sure he gets it.
I loThis is gonna be real awkward if I make it out the other side and you find this anyway.I'm such a dick.See you on the other side.
Dean
for sam
It's been a while, and I'm not really sure how to start this.
If you're reading this, I'm dead. I'm sorry if this is how you're finding out. I'm sorry if Wynonna is how you're finding out, but this was the easiest way to get this to you. Don't be too hard on her, alright? I know you two could never seem to figure things out but she means a lot to me. So suck it up, bitch.
I know things have been rough between us for the last few years. If I'm honest, I'd say they've been rough ever since you went to the Academy. I know it's not your fault, and that I wasn't the most supportive. It wasn't because of you. It was because I didn't trust the people you were trusting to teach you. Maybe I'm wrong. But whatever the truth of it is, I hope you figure it out.
I know that with me gone, you're going to get up to your ears in this, but don't do it alone. You'll need followers of the Changebringer to help you, so take Wynonna and see if you can track down Jo. Maybe the three of you can put your heads together and figure out what comes next. I'm sorry I didn't find more information for you, but with the Solstice coming, we can't afford to lose time. I don't have to tell you about the ways the world's going to go fucking screwy.
Or at least I shouldn't. If I do, I'm going to have to question your fancy schmancy education.
I really didn't mean to leave you alone, Sammy. I wish that I was able to tell you this face to face instead of like this. I know we haven't always been the best at goodbyes, but I'm trying on this one. I need you to remember who you are. That asshole may have trained you, but that doesn't mean he made you.
I love you, Sam. I'd tell you not to do anything stupid, but I know that this job requires a whole lot of stupid every so often. Tell Jo I owe her a bottle of Lionett Wine.
See you around.
Dean