"One of my brothers got the better of me," he said softly, not wanting to think about it, but he said that he would be honest. "They ambushed me, and cut out my grace so I wouldn't stop them from releasing Lucifer. They made me human so that I wouldn't get in their way. Thankfully, Castiel -- one of those who were still loyal to our Father -- was able to find my grace before I died as a human and returned it to me."