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hasperkynipples) wrote2009-01-17 01:36 pm
hasperkynipples) wrote2009-01-17 01:36 pm
[JP] Write a letter to you children or future children. (Pt. 4)
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three_syllables, and this is hidden for when she’s older. Written when Lisa was still pregnant. First three parts of this are posted in jstliketherifle.]
Sammy,
It seems weird writing this, considering it’s going to be years before you are even able to read it, but this is something you need to know, and when the time comes, I don’t know if I’ll be able to tell you. It hurts a lot to be doing this now, but hey—maybe if I’m prepared then, it’ll hurt a little less. I know that someday you’re going to ask me about the person you were named after, and I want to be able to have an answer for you when you do. I wish that he could be here so that you could meet him for yourself, because if it wasn’t for him, I wouldn’t have you, but that’s not going to happen.
Your uncle Sam was a good person. He helped people. He was the better of the two of us, and I miss him more than I can say. Sam was the smart one. He went to Stanford and got a full ride on top of that. He was the one who did all the research when we were hunting—not that I couldn’t do it, but Sam, he loved it. He had a big heart too. All he wanted was a nice normal life, a house and a family, away from the hunt, but I guess that just wasn’t meant to be for him. I suppose that’s mostly my fault, considering I’m part of the reason he’s not around anymore, but I know that he would have loved to have met you.
Truth of the matter is, Sam did what he had to do to keep your dad alive. I screwed up, put myself in a bad situation, and he got me out of it, but it cost me him. And I regret that I had to put him in that position every single day, but I don’t regret you. Not for a minute. You and your brothers are the most important things in my life right now. I made Sam and your mom a promise, and I’m going to make the same one to you. I will never leave you alone. Ever. You ever need me for anything, I’ll always be there for you.
And if I have any kind of luck at all, you’ll grow up to be just as great a kid as your namesake was.
Love,
Dad
397 words
greypicketfence. Sammy = three_syllables, and this is hidden for when she’s older. Written when Lisa was still pregnant. First three parts of this are posted in jstliketherifle.]Sammy,
It seems weird writing this, considering it’s going to be years before you are even able to read it, but this is something you need to know, and when the time comes, I don’t know if I’ll be able to tell you. It hurts a lot to be doing this now, but hey—maybe if I’m prepared then, it’ll hurt a little less. I know that someday you’re going to ask me about the person you were named after, and I want to be able to have an answer for you when you do. I wish that he could be here so that you could meet him for yourself, because if it wasn’t for him, I wouldn’t have you, but that’s not going to happen.
Your uncle Sam was a good person. He helped people. He was the better of the two of us, and I miss him more than I can say. Sam was the smart one. He went to Stanford and got a full ride on top of that. He was the one who did all the research when we were hunting—not that I couldn’t do it, but Sam, he loved it. He had a big heart too. All he wanted was a nice normal life, a house and a family, away from the hunt, but I guess that just wasn’t meant to be for him. I suppose that’s mostly my fault, considering I’m part of the reason he’s not around anymore, but I know that he would have loved to have met you.
Truth of the matter is, Sam did what he had to do to keep your dad alive. I screwed up, put myself in a bad situation, and he got me out of it, but it cost me him. And I regret that I had to put him in that position every single day, but I don’t regret you. Not for a minute. You and your brothers are the most important things in my life right now. I made Sam and your mom a promise, and I’m going to make the same one to you. I will never leave you alone. Ever. You ever need me for anything, I’ll always be there for you.
And if I have any kind of luck at all, you’ll grow up to be just as great a kid as your namesake was.
Love,
Dad
397 words