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Dean Winchester ([personal profile] hasperkynipples) wrote2010-03-22 04:17 pm

[fanmix] Distant Melody

[For [livejournal.com profile] likely_evil.]





1. My Beloved Monster ~ The Eels
My beloved monster and me
We go everywhere together
Wearing a raincoat that has four sleeves
Gets us through all kinds of weather

She will always be the only thing
That comes between me and the awful sting
That comes from living in a world that's so damn mean

This is a joke. Dean knows that his brother is a demon and is trying not to have a panic attack about it, or think about the fact that he put him there. So he does what any real Winchester does and deflects away from the problem, thinking that it will help. It doesn’t, but it keeps him suitably distracted. And yes this is a love song, but go with it for right now.

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2. I’m Going Slightly Mad ~ Queen
When the outside temperature rises
And the meaning is oh so clear
One thousand and one yellow daffodils
Begin to dance in front of you - oh dear
Are they trying to tell you something?
You're missing that one final screw
You're simply not in the pink my dear
To be honest you haven't got a clue

On first glance you would think this was a Sam song, but Dean just keeps becoming more and more frayed at the edges as the verse goes on. When he eventually gets to the point where he snaps and finally sells his soul for his brothers, it was just something that was waiting to happen.

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3. Objects in the Rearview Mirror May Appear Closer than They Are ~ Meat Loaf
We were racing; we were soldiers of fortune
We got in trouble but we sure got around
There are times I think I see him peeling out of the dark
I think he's right behind me now, and he's gaining ground

But it was long ago, and it was far away
Oh God, it seems so very far,
and if life is just a highway, then the soul is just a car

And objects in the rear view mirror may appear closer than they are

Dean misses the old days, when it was just him, his brother and his car, and there wasn’t the complications of one of them being a demon or crazy demons being after them. He wouldn’t trade having Alec for anything in the world, but he wishes that Alec could have met Sam as he was, not how he is now. As much as Dean loves his brother no matter what.

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4. Burnin’ For You ~ Blue Oyster Cult
Burn out the day
Burn out the night
I can't see no reason to put up a fight
I'm living for giving the devil his due

And I'm burning, I'm burning, I'm burning for you
I'm burning, I'm burning, I'm burning for you

This song actually goes both ways. Sam burned first because Dean got stopped on the way to sell his soul, but now Dean’s looking to fix it, and if that involves him going to Hell, so be it. As far as he’s concerned, it’s worth it.

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5. Nobody’s Fault But Mine ~ Led Zeppelin
Nobody's fault but mine
It's nobody's fault but mine
Try to save my soul tonight
Oh, it's nobody's fault but mine

Dean blames himself for Sam being the way he is. He blames himself for all the things that Sam has had to go through. It’s not right, or logical, but since when are Winchesters ever logical.

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6. Distant Melody ~ Peter Pan
Once upon a time and long ago
I heard someone singing, soft and low
Now when day is done, and night is near
I recall this song I used to hear
My child, my very own,
Don't be afraid, you're not alone
Sleep until the dawn
For all is well
Long ago this song was sung to me
Now it's just a distant melody
Somewhere from the past I used to know
Once upon a time, and long ago...

This was a last minute addition that Dean insisted I make the title track. First of all, this is both the brothers towards their mother, who isn’t even in the verse, but she’s always on the back of Dean’s mind, and now this is the message he’s sending through to Sam, for when he’s not there. Not that he’s sure Sam hears it, but he doesn’t want Sam to worry about what would happen if he wasn’t there.

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7. Veterans of the Psychic Wars ~ Blue Oyster Cult
You ask me why I'm weary
Why I can't speak to you
You blame me for my silence
Say it's time I changed and grew
But the war's still going on dear
And there's no end that I know
And I can't say if we're ever...
I can't say if we're ever
Gonna to be free

Dean is starting to feel more and more like he and his family are never going to be rid of whatever game the demons are playing. Even when he has nothing left, he’s going to wind up paying some kind of price for just breathing, and he hates that Sam is sucked into this with him. If he could do anything, he’d put both his brothers on the fast tracks to normal lives, but he doesn’t know how.

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8. Here Comes the Sun ~ The Beatles
Little darling
It's been a long, cold, lonely winter
Little darling
It feels like years since it's been here

Here comes the sun
Here comes the sun, and I say
It's alright

But he won’t tell Sam (or Alec) that. He wants them to be happy, so he pretends like he’s fine a lot of the time. When Lilith and Ruby finally take his brothers from him, though

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9. What a Good Boy ~ Barenaked Ladies
We've got these chains that hang around our necks,
People want to strangle us with them before we take our first breath.
Afraid of change, afraid of staying the same,
When temptation calls, we just look away.

This name is the hairshirt I wear,
And this hairshirt is woven from your brown hair.
This song is the cross that I bear,
Bear it with me, bear with me, bear with me

Dean needs Sam. It’s more than just him hating being alone, he needs Sam to help share the stuff that happens with him. It’s his burden to bear (or at least that’s how he sees it) but he wants someone to share it with him, or more to the point, just deal with him—because there’s not a lot of people that will.

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10. Happiness is a Warm Gun ~ Across the Universe
I need a fix 'cause I'm going down
Down to the bits that I left uptown
I need a fix cause I'm going down
Mother Superior jumped the gun
Mother Superior jumped the gun
Mother Superior jumped the gun
Mother Superior jumped the gun
Mother Superior jumped the gun
Mother Superior jumped the gun

Happiness (is a warm gun)
Bang Bang Shoot Shoot
Happiness (is a warm gun, momma)
Bang Bang Shoot Shoot

This is the name of the verse, so naturally the song wound up on the mix. I don’t think it has much more of a significance than that.

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11. Birdhouse in Your Soul ~ They Might Be Giants
I'm your only friend
I'm not your only friend
But I'm a little glowing friend
But really I'm not actually your friend
But I am

Blue canary in the outlet by the light switch
Who watches over you
Make a little birdhouse in your soul
Not to put too fine a point on it
Say I'm the only bee in your bonnet
Make a little birdhouse in your soul

This is my demon!Sam song. Because it’s adorable and bouncy like he is, and he’s just got this kind of sunshine to him that Dean so desperately needs a lot of the time. It also reminds me of Sam and his lava lamp. This was also the original title of the mix, but Dean made me change it.

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